im feeling very down lately.
dun really know the reason.
my home isnt like a home.
its only me and my sister,
living our own life.
so home,
to me is just a place
to let me sleep.
i had been busy working,
yes, i will be having money.
but i still feel unhappy.
i can buy these and that,
but wad i really wan cant
be bought with money.
i need my frens,
and my family.
although im very busy with my
life due to my work, but
im feeling very empty inside.
as in, i dun see any meanings
in my life.
wad is it that im heading towards?
i dun know.
wad is going to happen,
i dun wan to expect too much.
my life makes no sense to me
,some sort?
i feel very very empty.
why isit that my loved ones
are starting to leave me?
i feel no sense of
worthiness.
im just redundant,
perhaps,maybe probably?
sch's starting in abt
2 wks time.
so sad.
=(
working has caused me not
to have time to go out
with frens,
so sad again.
=(
moreover,
i dun like the person
whos in charge of me.
he doesnt teach me properly
and ensure that i know
the procedure,
b4 letting me do the stuff.
and will owwaes feel
frustrated when i ask
questions.
so sad again.
=(
but,
if i nv work,
i oso wont have money
to go out frequently.
even if go out,
oso wont spend much.
so,
i shall not be sad.
anw,this has been
bothering for quite
sometime.
isit good to change
when ppl start to say
abt ur bad point,
or isit better to be
urself?
i have been trying to
search for an answer,
but i dun seem to find it.
do ppl arnd me like me
for who i am?
or they will like me more
when i changed for the
better?
i d o n 't k n o w.