kikibeloved son,
thanks for the 6+
yrs u've been with
me.
i could still rmb
how naughty u were,
barking arnd and ended
up beaten by me.
i could still rmb ur
voice.
u'd owaes threw the ball
to me,wanted me to play
with u.
by because of my tiredness,
i often ignore u.
whenever i leaves the house,
u bark and asked me not to leave.
i did not care.
i still leave.
u were all left behind with
bebe at home.
while im happily spending time
with my frens.
when i reaches home feeling
exhausted,
u'd nv fail to jump onto
me,wanting me to touch
u.
but i owaes try to hide away
frm u,esp when im wearing
white jeans.
lol.
kiki,
papa really loves u.
and this few days i
have been buysing with
projects and co,
coming home late.
i din even have the time
to spend with u.
when u are sick,
im at school doing proj.
when u are terribly sick,
and abt to leave this world,
im still at sch.
i have been a failure
father to u.
yet,
u still treat me
so good.
i beat u when u make
noise.
i throw tanthrum
on u when im irritated
by stuff.
i ignored u afterwhich.
however,
u will still wag
ur tail when u see me.
no matter how i treat u,
u will treat me as good.
ive taken granted of u.
ive not been taking good
care of u despite im ur
father.
i only know how to
complain of the troubles
that uve given me.
i din know how to appreciate
u. until today.
u left me.
my heart is so painful,
when i see u struggling.
i kept calling ur name,
wanting u to wake up
and do not leave me
alone.
u did not hear.
u left me.
u've made all the memories
between us,
turned history.
ytd, when i saw u
being sick and quiet,
i kept telling u.
papa loves u.
papa loves u.
so, why are u leaving
me so early?
i know that u,
love me more than i do.
its incomparable.
im too selfish.
im taking u for granted.
yet u still love me.
cuz in this world,
i believe,
no one would give me
as much as u did.
u were a wonderful
fren of mine.
u shared my joy and
sorrow.
yet,
did i share ur joy
and sorrow?
im owaes not there
for u, when u need me.
when i walked by the
area that u'd owaes be at,
i will still think that
u are there.
yet in actual fact,
u are gone.
my son.
so ,
i thank u for the times
u had with me.
and seriously sry,
for not taking good
care of u.
i look at the happy
times we have had.
and in split seconds,
i realised they had became
all the pasts.
kiki,
u must learn how to take
care of urself,
be a good boy,
and rmb me,
ur papa.
a papa whom love u.
i love u,so much.