6.8.08

i miss u so.

i cant totally accept
that u are gone.

i asked my sister,
"have THEY eaten."

i reached home,
while taking off my shoe
on the seat,
i was waiting for u to
come and jump onto
me.
u did not come.

my heart is in
such a pain.

i imagined if one day
i could see u again,
i will hug u tight
and not let go.

bcuz of me,
u suffered so much.

yet u still love me
that much.

i feel so sorry,
that its kind of a
one-way relation,
u are there for me,
when i need u.
and not the vice versa.

i had been letting u
to smell my hand,
wanting u to rmb me.

how i wish,
u are still there,

jumping onto me.

playing balls with me.

wagging ur tail at me.

barking at me.

looking at me.

listening to my problems.

walking beside me,
on the street.

my life now is
imcomplete without u.

i smiled to myself,
sometimes in a fake
way.

and i could imagine u
looking at the smile
of mine,thinking that
ive gotten over u,and
leading a happy life.

u r mistaken.
the smile is fake.
the love for u is
still there.
i still miss u.

i still have my frens
who r there though,
i felt happy for that.

but without u,
it is just imcomplete.

kiki,
rmb.
i still love u so,
and missing u now.

take care of urself.
im sorry.

Published at 23:28