sth's missing.
i kip sensing that
theres sth missing
inside me.
sth which i need,
but i just couldnt
figure out wad isit.
on the other hand,
somethings have
undergone changes,
which i see no hope
in,and try not to
expect too much.
im owaes in the state
of telling myself,
dun expect too much
frm others. so for eg,
today,i was alone at
sch for several hours.
and i din even called
up anybody to ask
them pei me. i
dunno why,but i
just think that my
frens shud be having
lessons,or even if they
dun,they arent willing
to pei me.
my thinking had been
owaes lidat,and reality
had proved me right
most of the time.
anw,my expectation
for others is owaes low.
thats a lesson ive learnt,
since last yr?
i know that once exp
is high,disappointment
will be high too.
for today,or rather
ytd-monday,i clashed
this 3-5 lecture alone,
just bcuz i had co at 6.
its like if im not in co,
i can go home at 1pm
ord.
so its like i will be alone
for like 3 hrs?
i dunno if i wanna carry
on this kind of schedule
for monday.
its sucks to be in school
for more than 12 hrs.
-.-
tired+lonely+nerdy+
feel-like-shitting-state+
hungry.
shud i shud i...?
quit?
i dun dare to write
out too clearly,cuz
i dun wan ppl to
know abt it.
but,
whenever im lonely,
be it sec sch or poly,
co is the one tt
accompanies me,
occupies me,cheering
me up.
so how can i give up
so easily?
i really dunno.
i think i just sucks.
i dislike the way im
leading my life.
i owaes depend/rely
on things/ppl that i
tot was close to me,
but wrong,they were
not at all.
im owaes wrong,
stupid,ugly,failure
and everything i
think.
haha wth!
how come am i so
low-confident?
i keep telling myself,
things arent gonna be
the same,and will start
to think of the past.
ok shudup and die.
i hate being emo
too.i belif no one likes
reading emo post?
wWELLL,
ytd's orientation was wow.
unfortunately for the rest,
pipa was the most popular
instru.i was very happy cuz
only left me and MAYBE
jingting whom self-proclaimed
that she wont b coming
anymore.
and GUESS WAD?
17 people joined pipa!
whereas instru like dizi
erhu not so popular.
haha!
im gonna be beaten up
by some ppl out there.
omt.
imagine this impossible
scene.
17 people playing pipa
in dazu,one whole
stretch of pipas.
haha,impossible!
aiya sry,think room
not big enuf.
lols.
mega concert'08?
haha.
besides gz ensemble,
i think we can form
a pipa ensemble oso
lar right?
ok shudup and die.
and die and bye.
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