STOP GIVING ME EMPTY PROMISES.I HATE IT SO SO MUCH.if u are not 100% assured,
pls dun give me promises.
and break it in the end.
its so freaking irritating,
especially when it doesnt
only occurs once.
got so irritated by it.
i know ur frens frm ur
class more fun.
but cant u see im ALONE?
sometimes i am wondering
WAD ARE FRENS FOR?
to me,
got frens,or dun hav is about
the same.esp when all these
empty promises come in.
i treat u all as my very close
frens,but i dun think its
the other way round.
its totally NOT.
ok considered that my frens
frm my class not so close
with me or sth.
but they stil do not gimme
fake promises.
lemme tel u why im so pissed
off by empty promises.
-i will stay back and wait,decently
THINKING u will go.
and we will hav fun.but in the
end?no fun plus end up alone.
wads the pt?
-an initially expected 'fun' day,
turns out to be frustrated,and
lonely.
like wad xiaoting say.
im a LONER.
now im admitting.
yes I AM.
im not gonna believe,
and STUPIDLY expect
too much frm u all.
can say ive given up
quite a lot on u all.
hais.
recently a lot of frens,turn
out to be a dissapointment.
im not kidding or unclear
of wad im writing.
im very serious.
(im not referring to ash&wt
so no worries.)
u kept saying,
ok i'll go,cuz i skipped alot
times oradi.
this sounded true,so i
believed.
im not pissed by not understanding
wad u gotta do at home or stuff.
BUT.
it is the empty promise that u gave.
u sound as if everything that u are
required to do suddenly appears
on ur brain last min on that day.
can u like plan ahead?
if u a day in advance,tell me.
i wont be so pissed.
initially tot u all going.
but all last min,sms say
cannot.
cant u all say earlier?
everytime i know im alone
for co,and after u all tell me
cannot make it.
im pissed.superbly piss.
when the first sms came,
say cannot go.i stil ok.
cuz im thinking that the
other wil go.but in the end?
pissed.
i think cannot totally blame u
all.maybe u all like deciding
things last min?
the fault im with is that,
i expect too much frm u all?
perhaps.
anw i did not give up.
i just learnt how to
NOT expect too much.
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hais.mid sem tests coming.
sians.
i rmb something.
i was walking my dogs.
and i was singing jolin's
song.as i tot no one was arnd.
when i sing until very loud
and enjoying,
a guy peek out frm his car's
door.
the door opening.
den i was like.OPS.
lols.
out of 5 lectures,
i skipped 2.
and out of the remaining 3,
im alone for 2.
hais.
maybe thats a good thing?
cuz i can concentrate better.
i think thats the end?
goodbye everyone=)