30.12.07
slacked at home for so many days.
very sian oso.
the last time i went out was fri 21st-.-
so long lar.
first wk of holiday very bz.
going out,and stuff.
2nd wk of holiday,
thought would be more bz cuz got xmas.
but no.
i was wrong!
oso bcuz i was lazy to go out lar.
tml will be going out with ash.
will be playing pool.
and eating at tp.
haha.
cuz we cant think of anywhr
near safra to eat oso.
why only go out with her lei?
is bcuz weiting lor.
she very hiong recently.
she has been going home late
until....
the nxt day morning-.-
her life suddenly bcum the
most busy among us!
ok so,just now when i called her
at arnd 11pm.
she say she was slpn.
den i was thinking.
wa so early slp arh.
den she say,i slept frm today
morning till now.
den i was like.wow.
haha.
tml supposed reopen sch
and hav half-day cuz of
31/12.
but i only had an accounting
lecture in the morning.
and.u know,
i hav been missing accounting
lecture sinccee.....
last sem.
so its like can go out jiu go out
lor.haha.
and tml topic is PARTNERSHIP!
i told ashley,
hey tml i pon accounting lecture.
and the topic is on partnership.
den she say WAD?!
PREGNANCY?!
i was like laughing so hard.
woo.
so excited.
im finally going out tml!
haha.lameshit me.
can eat my school food!
hais.
when sch reopen,
i will be very very
busy with projects.
and oso got open house
performance.
on yangqin!
yangqin is fun.
the sound oso very nice.
miss co oso lar.
so long nv go liao.
ok go watch show liao.
i really miss xiao S way
of hosting.
haha so funny lar.
and i owaes like to
imitate her.
haha!
and now im watching
a show hosted by her,
and da S.
funny=)
Published at 23:48
28.12.07
can ppl stop cruelty to animals..?!
ive watched a video and its really
cruel to a large extent.
unlike meibin,
i think i shudnt paste the link here.
cuz it will really corrupt ur brain.
if wan watch go to meibin's blog
thru my links.
i did not finish watching the video.
cuz i really think if i continue watch,
it shows that im enjoying it.
and also,i felt pity for the dogs
in the video.
and the way to show it isnt to
continue watching.
cuz for eg when u r being
tortured,do u wan so many
ppl to see?
thats more cruel to u right?
so it similarly applies to them.
i rather them to kill them first,
instead of torturing and tearing
their skin apart while alived.
i somehow thinks that,the one
who shot the video,
and the ones torturing,
doesnt hav any humanity.
if the one shooting the video
has humanity den i think
he will feel sry for the dogs right?
may the ppl die asap.
-------------------------------------
alright.
gotta change my tone now.
haha.
i woke up so early bcuz of
cds selection.
its like so fast lor.
the choices given to me was
so limited!
im so loss of wad to choose.
actually in fact,
all the ones i chose,
arent the ones i wan initially.
1st-water technology.
2nd-business chinese.
3rd-leadership.
4th-psychology.
5th-sociology.
i wan calculus!
STILL cannot take.
last time put 1st choice,
couldnt get it despite
my appeal.
NOW,cant even got the
option to choose!
die.
my cds owaes in science sch-.-
ppl owaes find me weird
when they asked me my cds.
i would say,
human health and disease.
my currently cds.
den their mouth will slant.
then when i asked them
wads theirs.
they will reply french.
its like so many ppl take
language.
but they dunno that language
is much tougher to score.
to me cds is to help me
pull up my gpa lar.
but maybe to them,
learn new things more impt?
argh.
im so pisssed sometimes.
nowadays ppl cant think.
i dun like last-minute
den suddenly ppl ask
me go out u see.
but all my frens are like this.
not say all,but majority.
last if today wan go out,
the night before i will call
the person one.
den if the person say not sure,
i hav to wait till the other day.
which im not prepared at all.
is like suddenly morning call me,
say ok or wad.
i need time to prepare ok.
not like u all.
however.
there are some extreme cases.
can/cannot go oso dun wanna
say.
wth is happening to u?
give u ample time oradi,
still dun reply?
call dun answer?
it seems like im owaes begging
my frens to go out with me.
tell me.
am i really frenless?
i rmb not long ago
i went out with wt and ash.
for k and pool.
den i think i mentioned that
i owaes call them out but they
owaes nv come out one.
den i heard an reply stating,
'go call ur fren kelvin lar~!'
the nxt reply i gave was,
'arent u all my frens?'
ash said,'oh so we arent ur frens.'
(in a sarcastic way)
although it sounded fine.
but it isnt alright to me at all.
im so PISSED.
who can i call to go out with?
its so limited.
its ok to say 'cannot go'.
but why isit that u ask me
to go call other frens?its
like a mother gave her child a toy,
and asked him to play with it
himself.den when the child say,
mummy play with me.
the mum say'go play with ur toy lar!'
im not being emo.
but its just somehow my thinking
and feelings.
the feeling is owaes fukening.
i dunno why but i dun usually
call my poly frens out.
im feeling empty inside me.
its not that i cant accept a
'cannot' answer.
im not a sore loser.
tell me straight.
one word'cannot'.
dun give VERY VERY
out excuses.
cuz im reasonable,
i will listen to any reasons u
have got.
but if u misuse it,
and try to make-up something,
i will lessen the amount of
belief in u nxt time.
and maybe im very
straight-forward sometimes?
i know it.
if offended pls forgive.
its either we r close enuf to
offend u,
or u urself doesnt even need
the doubt to offend.
its somehow like that?
Published at 10:46
26.12.07
merry xmas to me...
haha.
to everyone as well lar!
cuz xmas eve and xmas itself,
i din go out at all!
hm.
firstly is bcuz my frens arent free.
and secondly,quite lazy oso.
hahas.
i miss my school's food!
carbonara!whr are you?!!...
argh...and cutlet rice!..
chicken chop!..
fish and chips..!
somehow i wan sch to reopen soon.
ehh?..
lols.
hav been looking thru my posts.
realised that theres so many posts.
hais.
can only say that time pass so fast.
why i cant view my blog?!!!
and why cant i view my friendster
profile?!..
the website probl or my com probl?!
sians.
ppl can u see my entry on my blog?
pls tell me cuz i can only see my tagboard.
so long no co oradi.
so sian lar.
and i still got the yangqin perf on openhouse.
haven even start rehearsing with yunqi and kj.
its on 10/01!
and our prac resumes on 2/01.
8days only.
haha.
i wan sch reopen but without lesson can?!?
wanna eat only.
and projects are wad im worrying abt now.
haven even form group for microecons!!!!
ok,
have been slacking at home for so long.
its time to go out.
frens u may start asking me out now!
merry xmas!
hohoho..
Published at 00:27
23.12.07
我不配
作词:方文山 作曲:周杰伦
这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去
这感觉 已经不对
我努力 在挽回
一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给
你嘟嘴 许的愿望很卑微 在妥协
是我忽略 你不过要人陪
这感觉 已经不对
我最后 才了解
一页页 不忍翻阅的情节 你好累
你默背 为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴
而我心碎 你受罪你的美 我不配
最长的电影
周杰伦
我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你 慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭 不是因为在乎
Published at 00:05
22.12.07
went out with wt and ash!
we started off by eating
at the hawker near bugis.
cuz my mission of eating:
must be inexpensive,
and must really fill up my
stomach to the brim.
so the environment doesnt
really matters to me.
den we saw weijuan,and
benjamin.
shocked to see'em there.
den we walked to the paradiz
centre there to play pool.
by half way thru wt told me
that theres a nice and cheap
beancurd.
so i was thinking.
why not?
den we eat.
and left to paradiz centre.
played pool for less than an
hour,cuz we were rushing to
sing K at suntec.
so aft pool,we still played
arcade!
i had a nice time drifting
during the racing game.
so fun and inexpensive!
0.37cents per game.
gosh.
while outside is $1 for
the racing game which
ive mentioned...!
arnd 3 times less?
den we played the
hitting game.
here and there and we left
for suntec for K.
we took a bus 14.
initially wanted to take
cab,wt's idea.
rich right.
so near only(driving dist)
oso take cab.
anw thanks wt for her
generiosity.
is there such word.
so i suggested taking bus,
which i think sure hav
one going to suntec one.
so when we reached,
we each started to talked
abt our own stuff.
and cuz we oso rushing for
time,we bagan anxious.
lols.
den the same incident which
happened in orchard occurs.
the scenerio whereby we got
fed-up and talking loudly.
ESPECIALLY 'u noe know'.
she ended off with a BIG
shuddup,when she's the most
noisy one -.- .....=x
so initially i tot only 9+
cuz got student price.
who knows?!
the person say today holiday.
so dun hav student price.
den end up 18/19+++
until $25.
gosh.
but the generous weiting
appear again.
she offered to pay 50% for
both me and ashley..!
i dun really like spending
others money.
i really dun mind leaving
and go find other stuff
to play.
seriously.
instead of spending wt's money.
meaning she gotta pay 2 persons
amount.
hais.
so we sang and ash's god-bro,
wans her to go back by 7.30!
den is like we kip rushing here
and there oso bcuz of this god
-bro of hers.
den i kip telling ash that,
she dun hav to listen totally
to him.
haha.
den she say i teach her bad-.-
im not a baddie ok.
so we sang lots of songs.
so shiok.
i love wo bu pei!
so nice to sing.
and we had our own solos
as well.
haha.
at least it was fun.
and we even act as if we are
the stars like jolin on the stage.
we stood on the sofa,
and the rest of those who arent
singing,will watch the one standing
to sing!
den jolin oso gotta shake hands
with her fans.
funny.
we love to act.
den half way thru,
i asked ash not to leave so early.
if not very wet-blanket.
so she called her god-bro-.-....
and he agreed for her to reach home
by 8.30.
den we cheered.
haha.
the time to reach home doesnt matter
so much right?
as long as not till 10+...or midnight.
so after that we went to shop
arnd suntec.
and we walked to city hall mrt
to go home.
as it was raining,i took out my
umbrella,
and i shared with ashley.
she kip saying that the umbrella
very troublesome.
lameshit right.
den she saying she no nid
to stand under the umbrella.
den i said to her,
if u go out den i wil be very
paiseh,cuz one girl walking
in the rain,while a guy needs
to hold an umbrella.
haha.
den i keep chasing to shelter
her while she kip saying its
troublesome.
i tot the one who's holding is me?
haha.
why is u who say troublesome sia.
she like da xiao jie sia.
need to shelter her when
she dun wan at all.
-.-
so to save my face,
i kip begging/asking her
to stand inside.
to save my 'face'.
haha.
thx to weiting for
paying so much.
:)
HOWEVER,
i just found out that,
on my tagboard,
she declared a fight
with me.
so i was like anything
lor.oso tolerate until
so long liao.
its time to let my emotion
out flow out and give it
a good FIGHT!
gambatte..!
GOGO!
support me k.
Published at 00:17
21.12.07
mon.
went to play pool with nic and wt.
its has been long since i went out
with nicholas.
the most only saw him in sch.
so yah.
he left early.
den wt and me went to eat.
and i pei her to go hp at starhub,
singtel.
den after that.
we walked pass the pasarmalam,
and.
i asked her to pei me walk a while.
cuz i just wanna see got wad shops.
then,
this selfish weiting.
say dun wan.
den i say,if u dun pei me den i
alone liao lei.
her selfishness doesnt allow her
to spend a few minutes pei-ing
me.
whr got this kind of ppl one?!
call urself a friend.
-.-
i pei-ed u walk 2 handphone
shops lei.
and u so selfish.
gosh.
nv seen such friend like u.
still wanna say reasons like
raining?..
dots.
she still say that the rain
will cause the ground of the
pasarmalam to flood o.o
theres holes in btween the wooden
ground isnt it?
so it is an excuse.
and when weijuan heard it oso
find it ridiculous.
so call urself a marsian.
tue.
went back to changkat co.
with the selfish fren aka marsian,
WJ,ZY and john goh.
conductor weird weird one.
den saw michelle and deb.
got say sth regarding their
attitude to the co ppl.
hope i dun sound fierce.
haha.
wed.
went for a dinner.
a raffles countryclub.
it was a xmas dinner,
which i later on then know.
and i went there with my co
ppl.is our chairman ask
us go one.
den kaijuan meibin and me
ate so much.
that the guys(unknown)sitting
with us in the table kip laughing.
gosh.
den dessert we oso the first to take,
due to some coincidental reason!
so funny.
thurs.
went to eat with my family.
grandma they all oso.
hmm.
a satisfying dinner.
haha.
den i'll be going out
later again!
cuz now is midnight.
to celebrate xmas-.-
serious.
cuz of some marsian
reason.thinking that
xmas last for more than
a week.
dots x990
the marsian=ganweiting.
thats wad she thinks.
ok forget it.
so we will be playing pool,
and singing k.
hope will be fun.
im so busy.
everyday go out sia.
gonna broke liao.
Published at 02:12
17.12.07
exams are over..!
friday went bugis with kelvin.
had lots of fun playing pool,arcade,lan.
haha.
den saturday met up with wt and ash.
played pool.while wt left first.
later oso miting up for pool.
haha.
i was looking thru my testimonials
in friendster.
its like gosh.
i really missed those times.
my sec sch days.
i think im more happy in
those days?
i seriously cherishes all
my frens now.
frens frm JAE,TPCO,CCSSCO etc.
i just need them somehow.
if not,im considered a total
frenless person.
so sad case.
haha.
maybe sometimes i dun
express myself,but i just
wanna say that every frens
to me are impt.
love'em all=D
Published at 01:08
9.12.07
arnd 1 wk nv blog oradi.
i kept wanting to blog,
but is like no time to do so.
lols.
lemme say abt wad i did this wk?
tuesday.
i went back to CHANGKAT.
yea of cuz for co.
cuz they had a change in all instructors.
den i just went there to see lor.
is like very few ppl attended only.
so its like i feel very upset for the co.
so i hav been asking some of them to go.
haha.
he conductor i saw on tues was ok.
they said that he's frm china.
but he doesnt look like.
and they say he can speak fluent english.
that further proves that he's like a s'porean
right?
thur.
had lessons frm 9-1.
den cds lesson at 4!
so its like i got the 3 hr-break.
i asked kelvin out for pool.
and he's so on.
my class the ppl.
either they had their own lesson.
or go home.
or left with their own frens.
so its like i cant depend on my
class ppl to accompany me.
im used to it.
haha.
i dunno why.when i walking out
of sch,i kept thinking that i will
see munyee.just got the tot only.
den when i reached the bus stop.
she's really there!
im serious lei.
normally i wont see her often one.
frm i enter this sch till now,only got
to see her 3 times only!excluding this
time at the bus stop.
so i find it amazing.and im oso wondering
why do i hav the tot that i will see her?
weird.
den took bus to safra.cuz raining and
rushing for time.
so dun ask me why din i walk,its so near.
its oso not considered near i think.
not at all.
more than 400m which is one round in
stadium?
its considered far ok.
so when i reach i mit him up.
den we went to play pool.
woos.
so shiok.long time nv play sia.
love pool man.
den at arnd 2.10 we left the pool
area.and we saw sam and KYLE
and another fren.
cuz i got tell sam i wil b going safra
to play pool.
den i ask him why is he here.
he say come and take over my table.
but its like too bad i think?
our table kena taken by others oradi.
so kelvin and i went off.
to the bowling there.
we played darts!
quite nice but cannot play too long,
cuz can be quite sian after a while.
den we decided if wan to play bowling.
but we decided not cuz its not very cheap.
lols.
so,
we walked to TP for our lunch!
at mensa.
cuz among biz,design and mensa,
only mensa got carbonara!as in
only mensa got spaghetti oso.
its so nice.
esp carbo.
i ordered alot cuz i damn hungry la.
den i saw felicia chen feng ling.
they were shooting the mei shi da zuan
gong,correct name anot?
shes sooooo beautiful.
haha.
ok den aft we finish out lunch.
we walked arnd tp.
intro to him lor.
since he say he wan come tp.
and mayb business.
hope he can come in lar,
cuz tpco needs suona!
haha.
saying abt co,its like so long
i had gone to co.
although its like only 1 wk?
haha.
cuz now is midsem test den they
got this break.
so gotta wait until holidays
start den continue lo.
saturday.
today is my first paper.
cds-human health and diesease.
for others monday then is their
first paper,cuz their cds nonexamable
one.
so its like woke up sooo early.
cuz i gotta reach by 8.50.
got study until late midnight.
so its like most of the questions
i ok lor.
only some i anyhow bomb.
haha.
actually i wanna mit either ash
they all or kel one.
but ash too late den reply wt's msg,
and kelvin is in malaysia.
which i forgotten and i still asked
him if wanna go play pool.
haha.
joke man.
den so im all alone like wad im used
to,and i walked arnd tm cs and ep.
went to bhg at cs,and looked arnd.
the shops like more or less common
shops.no special ones.
den i saw this stylish guy wearing red
skinny at tm.he's playing the childrens'
kind of of keyboard.those mini one.
haha so funny.
not suitable for his look.
oh yah.i've bought black grey
and white skinnies.haha.
receiving them on monday!
so excited.
im again materialistic.argh
alright gotta go oradi.
hope my mid sem tests quickly
end man!
so that i can go out like wad during
the holidays!
and xmas...=(
still no dates.cuz wt changed it to 21st.
which is not xmas at all lor.
den actual xmas like how sia.
alright going off now.
bbye.
Published at 01:09
1.12.07
STOP GIVING ME EMPTY PROMISES.I HATE IT SO SO MUCH.if u are not 100% assured,
pls dun give me promises.
and break it in the end.
its so freaking irritating,
especially when it doesnt
only occurs once.
got so irritated by it.
i know ur frens frm ur
class more fun.
but cant u see im ALONE?
sometimes i am wondering
WAD ARE FRENS FOR?
to me,
got frens,or dun hav is about
the same.esp when all these
empty promises come in.
i treat u all as my very close
frens,but i dun think its
the other way round.
its totally NOT.
ok considered that my frens
frm my class not so close
with me or sth.
but they stil do not gimme
fake promises.
lemme tel u why im so pissed
off by empty promises.
-i will stay back and wait,decently
THINKING u will go.
and we will hav fun.but in the
end?no fun plus end up alone.
wads the pt?
-an initially expected 'fun' day,
turns out to be frustrated,and
lonely.
like wad xiaoting say.
im a LONER.
now im admitting.
yes I AM.
im not gonna believe,
and STUPIDLY expect
too much frm u all.
can say ive given up
quite a lot on u all.
hais.
recently a lot of frens,turn
out to be a dissapointment.
im not kidding or unclear
of wad im writing.
im very serious.
(im not referring to ash&wt
so no worries.)
u kept saying,
ok i'll go,cuz i skipped alot
times oradi.
this sounded true,so i
believed.
im not pissed by not understanding
wad u gotta do at home or stuff.
BUT.
it is the empty promise that u gave.
u sound as if everything that u are
required to do suddenly appears
on ur brain last min on that day.
can u like plan ahead?
if u a day in advance,tell me.
i wont be so pissed.
initially tot u all going.
but all last min,sms say
cannot.
cant u all say earlier?
everytime i know im alone
for co,and after u all tell me
cannot make it.
im pissed.superbly piss.
when the first sms came,
say cannot go.i stil ok.
cuz im thinking that the
other wil go.but in the end?
pissed.
i think cannot totally blame u
all.maybe u all like deciding
things last min?
the fault im with is that,
i expect too much frm u all?
perhaps.
anw i did not give up.
i just learnt how to
NOT expect too much.
________________
hais.mid sem tests coming.
sians.
i rmb something.
i was walking my dogs.
and i was singing jolin's
song.as i tot no one was arnd.
when i sing until very loud
and enjoying,
a guy peek out frm his car's
door.
the door opening.
den i was like.OPS.
lols.
out of 5 lectures,
i skipped 2.
and out of the remaining 3,
im alone for 2.
hais.
maybe thats a good thing?
cuz i can concentrate better.
i think thats the end?
goodbye everyone=)
Published at 00:14